Thursday, April 13, 2006 

... Ramblings of a Mad Woman ...

I have been away in my mind. Visiting was not in the agenda. No - not even you. You ever get to a time when you don't feel like being around anyone, you don't want them coming over or you going to see them. Well that is where I have been.

I started this week wanting to continue with my therapy, so I did some ramblings for our visit.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Wow a lot has happened since we last talked. School has started back and I have been so extremely busy with that and work. I was coming home right after work but soon realized I couldn’t get any homework done here so now I stay at school in Study-Hall till no later than 5 p.m.

My husband is having a hard time with my schedule this term and it has put a bit of a strain on us, but I believe and know we will be stronger in the end when I finish.

I work part-time so I am not bringing in a lot of the income and when that little check does come in, it only comes once a month. So needless to say my husband is the only major income coming in and he likes the idea of saving money but the money just don’t seem to make it from his pocket to the savings. But he likes to talk about how much we have saved. lol

I have my little check set up to direct deposit and then money to transfer into the savings account.

I admit – I am a dreamer! I dream of how life will be in the future at almost all times, it is what motivates me to keep going to want more for myself and my family.

I want to be able to go off somewhere with my family and not worry about where the money is coming from and having to budget for it or maybe even just not pay a bill for that week so we can go and enjoy ourselves.

I want to do a service that I enjoy as well as have a nice check to look forward to at the end of the month.

I want to be able to take my daughter to town and buy her all the clothes that she needs and not think of “Do I have enough money”? What a horrid way to raise a child, they get so use to you talking about not having money they begin to suppress their dreams in fear – No money – always broke – always poor.

That is another reason I went back to school – for my child. So really I have revived myself just by typing this for Therapy.

Hey wow this Therapy really is working. I will remember this and come to Therapy more often – instead of putting you off like I have been.


Thursday, April 13, 2006

I sent an email to one of my advisors about dropping her class. I hope I can do it without any hassle. I mean if it means getting a WF then I will keep the class and push forward.

But if I can get out of it right now and be ok then I will, because I have too much on my plate at the moment and I am stretched to a breaking point.

I just can’t take a lot of classes like some do, my hubby and child are demanding and if they don’t have their time they are like me and get cranky. Plus we are suppose to be on chapter 2 and I am not done with one yet – really haven’t even read over it all good.

My other three classes will be fine, two of them are demanding. They require a lot of homework and time. One of the classes requires me to use software that is only available at school. The other requires software that I can use at home so between the two I am always busy. I hope all goes well today.

… Session time over …